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Alhamdulilah, alhamdulilah! My Lord is so good to us, He gives, He gives, and blesses us in so many ways its unbelievable!

I’ve been swamped- a good type of swamp, wherein I truly believe its Allah subhana wa tala answering my dua list from Ramadan. I’m attached to my dua list in Ramadan and throughout out the year and all of these things that Allah blessed me with is a result of Him choosing to bestow His mercy upon me! Ujeeboo dawati itha daan! Truly Allah did say, “call upon me and I will answer”. So thats the best part of the last couple months, busy, good type of busy, but not enough time to blog. So here are things that have been on my mind!

* If you leave the Quran, the Quran leaves you! Yes, it does. This is something really scary. I’m really big on memorization, beyond tafsir, tajweed, memorization gives me my Quran-eman fix. I don’t know how to describe, but truly combining all three is wonderful works for me! My heart rejoices. So a reminder to all of you out there, don’t let a day go by without reciting, reflecting, and looking in the book of Allah for directions, its a must. Because as time goes by your brain sort begins to rust, almost like cob-webs begins to set in, and in place of a reflective mind, and an eman filled heart, therein begins a deadness that is scary. This reminds me of the saying of the scholars “as the one who doesn’t have quran in their life, is like a ruined house”; how sad that is!

* I was a camp councelor for MYNA again, I love it! Its amazing, and life changing. Camp isn’t really different from what I do with the youth in my community (at least my role), but the activities/lectures I take part in are a bit different. The best way to be better Muslim is to really help others be better Muslims. I have a hadeeth on my wall that I try to live by everyday. “khayro naas man yanfa3o naas” “The best people are those who are of benefit to others” Not to say I’m the perfect Muslim, but helping out the youth, helping them reflect on the deen, and helping them to remember Allah in one way or another really makes my day.

* Teaching in the morning and working at the library really helps me reflect on all sorts of stuff! I’m currently reading “The Help” by Kathyryn Stockett, and I’ve had two things come to mind (Power of the prayer, shunning/mean girls). I was really moved by Aibileen (a black maid in 1962) desire to be close to God and her need/turning to God for everything in the book. Aibileen, though a christian reminded me of my connection with prayer/dua in Islam! This woman writes her own prayers, and this is something I totally relate to. I listened to a lecture once where the shaykh mentioned how we should make our duas personal/specific to Allah, so that we show Allah how weak we are, and of how much we are in need of Him, and our desire to have what we are asking for. I know its odd to think about this, but think about all the duas we’ve been making through out the years, (good health, good deen, etc.), do we ever change it up? Are we better people because of these duas? Have we changed because of them? I say be precise, get to the nity gritty details of what/and how we want something from Allah! This is something I found that worked for me! One of my favourite lines from the book that Aibleen says is ” Cause that’s the way prayer do. It’s like electricity, it keeps things going” Subhana’Allah, how true that is! Second part of this reflection is that of mean girls! Has anyone seen the movie ‘mean girls?” I have never but the gist of it is a bunch of mean girls causing havoc, and subhana’Allah one of the things my camp adviser said was how at times girls can beeeeee soooo viscous/so mean to each other, meaner than boys. Sometimes I see bits and peices of that in my first graders! Subhana’Allah! But anyway, in the story, Skeeter one of the main characters gets shunned by her ‘friends’ when she decides to try to change things up, and stand up for what is right; i.e equality/rights for humanity! Its a sad case though when Hilly, the head ‘mean girl’ shakes things up and turns everyone else against her. Its sad, and the author describes this when Skeeter is told by Aibileen of her being shunned ” I don’t care about any of that ole stuff, anyway. She kind a laugh and it hurts my heart. Cause everybody care. Black, white down we all do.” Its sad stuff, and personally I’ve been at the end of such situations before while I was young as well as an adult (Yeah, if your outspoken at times like me, you are bound to face some difficulty in this area), but subhana’Allah it really takes a strong will, a determination to stay firm in what you fully believe in, and a lot of dua! Its a road of self discovery as well and it really shows you what you are capable of as a person. I try to teach my first grade girls that things like this shouldn’t happen, and that they should be better people and shouldn’t treat each other this way! I really enjoyed this book overall! It reminds me of the Civil rights era, I always enjoyed learning about that era. I feel like its a part of my history as an immigrant to this country. It reminds me back in 6/7th grade when I read “The Watson go to Birmingham…” one of my favourite books, or the “To kill a mockingbird”… man these are really good books to teach in the classroom, I can’t wait to work with my middle Schoolers!

* When my Ipod battery dies in my car and I can’t listen to my Quran, I’m left to NPR lol. I like NPR, but I don’t like listening too much news, because it makes me sad. I listen to it to the point of just being ‘aware’, and cut it off when it passing towards the point of ‘too sad’. So this past week, while driving home from work, there were some recurring news… 4 nights in a row at least. Syrian issues, Pope having a meeting from members of the church from all of over the world for victims of paedophiles in the church… thats a mouth full, and It really made me sad. This is a case of religion/folks practising that religion gone really really wrong! I respect people of faith, but at times its really hard to listen to stuff like that and have an objective mind. Politics/ the run for office/Romney. All sorts of other stuff, Politics is interesting but I’m always sceptical of things that goes down in Politics.

Alhamdulilah, really busy days, but insha’Allah insha’Allah it is all things that Allah is pleased with. I pray that Allah alleviates our difficulties, and may these difficulties be a cause for us to grow closer to our Lord, the Mighty and Majestic!

Till next time, may we meet in the highest abode! Al Firdous Ala!


Beautiful recitation!

Posted: November 13, 2011 in Ahh moments, Quran


Alhamdulilah, All praise is due to Allah who has bestowed His blessings upon us. Alhamdulilah my Lord is great to us.

This is such a wonderful recitation, masha’Allah.


Alhamdulilah, all praise is due to Allah subhana wa tala who provides for us in so many ways!

Today in my alhuda class we covered verses 1-5 of Surah Baqarah, and one of the parts that really hit home with me was the concept of Taqwa. Having Taqwa is a precursor to obtaining guidance. Allah says that this book is a guidance for the mutaqeen (those who are God conscious-Pious), meaning that these people approach the Quran with Allah in mind (following what He commands and distancing oneself from what displeases Him). My teacher recently covered gave the example of going to a party and coming dressed appropriately, and in the same way I thought of the Quran and anything to do with Allah, i.e that we must claock ourselves with clothing of Taqwa, we must adorn our lives with the remembrance of Allah so that we may continue to recieve and benefit from the guidance that Allah readily provides for us. In tafseer we also discussed how Allah says in surah Baqarah (that this book is for the mutaqeen- the God conscious, but at the same time somewhere else Allah says “this book is a guidance for mankind”) and to understand these verses is to say that the Quran is revealed for all-open to all, to read, reflect, recieve information, but the one who benefits the most from it and gains the utmost guidance is the one who comes to it with a heart that is God conscious. This point really hit home with me…it made me think about what I should think about every time I open Allah’s noble book, the kind of frame of mind I should be in.

Some gems/reminders from class:

* Allah subhana wa tala is Ar Rahman-Ar Rahmeem, and when we face difficulty in anything we should see whether the problem is happening as a result of something we are doing wrong. We should seek to gain Allah’s forgiveness, pray two rakats of nawafil and continue to seek Allah’s guidance in everything we do.

* Whenever we are doing anything, working towards something, we should ask ourselves whether its Akhirah oriented or not. We should strive and know that whatever we are doing if its for the sake of Allah, the efforts will not be forgotten by Allah and He will reward us.

* With every hardship comes ease, and sadly enough we forget the ease part. We have a lot of eases that Allah has blessed us with that we don’t take into account. Our sight, our hearing, everything that we have.

* There are so many things that we get from Allah that we didn’t even ask for. Allah has given to us anyway.

* Concerning huruful Muqadat- disjointed letters in beginning of Surah Baqarah. When Allah wants as to understand, open our heart to something, or to comprehend something it will happen…only when He wills it. This is so true in life! Whatever we can’t understand, we must accept it as Allah’s decree i.e Alif Laam Meem meaning.

* What is your meaning of success. Prophets s.a.w. defination. To be saved from the hell-fire, and entered into Paradise (hadeeth).

* The least punishment in the hell-fire is that given to Abu Lahab- shoes of fire that makes his brain boil; So when we take the idea of hell-fire lightly we don’t know the reality of it, and we have no comprehended the severity of the punishments.

* Anything associated with Allah has a high status. The Quran, the people associated with the sunnah, its time frame, all of it is important.

* Try to give up a lot of sleeping, less sleep, and more time to the way of Allah and you will see barakah in your life.

* Ulaika- “those” is showing high status, these people are being exalted..those who recieved guidance from Allah, who believe in the unseen, who establish salaah, who give zaakah. Allah also uses “Ulaika” to refer to the people of the book- ahlul kitaab, because indeed these people were given one of the books of Allah as well. We need to be open minded when giving them dawah.

* Verse 3 of Maida, Omar r.a had a jewish man tell him that had they been given that verse in their book, they would have been celebrating…who would have followed it if it was in their book.

* Referring to point up. In path of knowledge, prejudice takes the place of taking knowledge from a specific people. Open minded we should be!


Alhamdulilah, all praise is due to Allah who has blessed us in every facet of our lives.

The Alchemist notes, commentary:

* “The secret is here in the present. If you pay attention to the present, you can improve upon it. And, if you improve on the present, what comes later will also better” I really like this point as its a topic that keeps coming up throughout the book. Subhana’Allah how many times throughout our day do we worry about the what-ifs, and the future…may Allah grant us ease and help us to be grateful for what we have right now and grant us to the ability to be patient for what is in store for us in the future.

* “… to die tomorrow was no worse than dying on any other day. Every day was there to be lived or to mark one’s departure from this world” This reminds me of the companion who was asked what he would do differently if he were to die tomorrow or soon, and they replied “nothing differently, just continue what I was doing” (paraphrase)…subhana’Allah, its amazing indeed, we should live our lives as though we won’t have many tomorrows and do all the good we can! Sabiqoooooooooo!

* “Every search beings with beginners luck. And every search ends with the victor’s being severely tested.” This reminds me of the verse where Allah says …

Am hasibtum an tadkhuloo aljannata walamma yatikum mathalu allatheena khalaw min qablikum massathumu albasao waalddarrao wazulziloo hatta yaqoola alrrasoolu waallatheena amanoo maAAahu mata nasru Allahi ala inna nasra Allahi qareebun
2:214 Or do ye think that ye shall enter the Garden (of bliss) without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? they encountered suffering and adversity, and were so shaken in spirit that even the Messenger and those of faith who were with him cried: “When (will come) the help of Allah.” Ah! Verily, the help of Allah is (always) near!

A lot of times we feel everything should come easy to us, or we complain about why we don’t have this or that, or why this hasn’t happened for us when we wanted it sooner etc. Truly verses like this remind has “hardship will come”…but indeed Allah has promised that ‘after hardship, comes ease”

” …they understood that when something evolves, everything around that thing evolves as well” This reminds me of the verse in the Quran where Allah reminds us to save ourselves and our families from a fire whose fuel is of men and stones. Its odd to think this, but it reminds me that when we change or we strive to get closer to Allah subhana wa tala then we should try our best to bring our loved ones into the goodness that we are seeking. On a smaller scale when we try to change for the best or try to implement something the goodness that we are doing should reflect in every aspect of our lives..from our social to familial life.

” Don’t give in to your fears” said the alchemist, in a strangely gentle voice. ” if you do, you won’t be able to talk to your heart” This was a powerful reminder in the book. How many times have we gotten scared and all sense of what we wanted to do or the journey we were on flew out the window because we got scared. May Allah make us people of strength and seek guidance in what is most pleasing to him.

“There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure”

“Thats what alchemists do. They show that, when we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better, too.”

“Its true; life really is generous to those who pursue their personal legend”


Alhuda: Yesterday I begin a different group session with older Alhuda teacher, and it was really wonderful. We begin from Fatiha again and as I was telling her, everytime we begin the Quran again or go over a surah we’ve done in the past it effects us differently and we see something new to inspire us! This is the beauty of the Quran. Since we are beginning the program in full, my teacher gave us some wonderful reminders to help us in the journey.

Reminder 1: When we study the Quran we will see the blessings and rewards of it in our own lives. We have to give it time and we will see the effects of it all around us!

Reminder 2: With everything we do, shaytaan will get to us. We will get distracted, and difficulty will come. We have be steadfast and keep in the way of Allah subhana wa tala.

Reminder 3: Jannah: In the Quran Allah subhana wa tala talks about the things we will have…from clothing, spouses, to food, as these are the things that our nafs desires in the dunya, and so if we control our nafs here and are patient Allah will reward us for it in the hereafter with better things then we could have ever imagined.

Reminder 4: When Allah sent the first human being on earth, Adam alayhi sallam, Allah told him…

Qulna ihbitoo minha jameeAAan faimma yatiyannakum minnee hudan faman tabiAAa hudaya fala khawfun AAalayhim wala hum yahzanoona
2:38 We said: “Get ye down all from here; and if, as is sure, there comes to you Guidance from me, whosoever follows My guidance, on them shall be no fear, nor shall they grieve.

Guidance will come to you…follow it, and you will not have to fear (fear of the future), nor will you grieve. So follow. Subhana’Allah when I heard this part, I just sat there and pondered…follow it and you shall not worry!

Reminder 5: My teacher asked me the meaning of 3alameen in surah fatiha. I said that Allah is indeed the lord of the worlds..these worlds are worlds of jinn, past, future generations etc. She added that recently they found four planets that they thought to hold/sustain life like earth due to is similarity to earth. So indeed there is a possiblity that is true, and indeed there is so much around us that are unknown to us, but indeed the Creator is aware and is all powerful. She mentioned how powerful/big Allah is in the way He subhana wa tala is. She also mentioned how the reason we make mistakes, waste time, is because we don’t understand how big Allah is- The Rubb of the worlds” He created everything, and the sahaba did so much and accomplished so much (they had the same 24 hours as us), The sahabah did so much because they understand Allah subhana wa tala and they worked as a result of it!

Reminder 6: This reminder is powerful and I remember laughing to myself with everyone else. Basically my teacher asked in what times/situations should we call out to Allah. She gave a scenario dealing with a husband and a wife and a drinking glass. Basically the sister was asked if she wanted to get a drink of water and wasn’t feeling well, would she ask her husband who was sleep or call out to Allah. The sister mentioned how her getting the drink and ultimately coming to her is Allah’s decree, she would ask her husband, but if Allah hadn’t willed it wouldn’t happen. The funny part was when my classmate answered it she mentioned all the correct responses but she didn’t know what more the teacher wanted from her and just kept going and reply and the teacher kept asking for more and the student finally said “i don’t know, your questions are driving me crazy” lol. It was funny, but my teacher was trying to get at the fact that we should ask Allah for the pety, minute, small, things as well as big! The sahaba would ask Allah for a shoelace (paraphrased hadeeth), before they even sought it out! Subhana’Allah, this was really really powerful, I just sat there and thought I need to start asking Allah for the smallest of things! We always think of dua being synonymous with “I am going through difficulty” or ” I want this huge/thing to happen for me” So next time your thinking about things from food to clothing, don’t hesitate, ask Allah!

Till next time, may Allah make us the people of Quran, the people of Allah!


Alhamdulilah, all praise is due to Allah who has blessed us with time.

Bullet format is the way I’ll go for this post, too many things to capture all at once.

* Time is so precious, so important, Allah subhana wa tala swears by it! Must use it wisely

* Quran memorization picked up again and going really well alhamdulilah. Surah Rum eases my heart! loves it, alhamdulilah.

* Learning to speak up more and speak my mind without thinking it will hurt others. Expressing how something makes me feel and expressing a simple “no” when something is just not my ‘cup of tea’. Being assertive without being mean and expressing what I feel is the healthy way for me.

* Teaching again..loves it! Both secular studies and Islamic studies (weekends). This is the stuff that made undergrad the best, the constant whirl wind of activities all tying back with to Allah’s remembrance makes me happy. I can’t imagine doing anything else in life beyond imparting what I know to little minds (bit minds more like it, as they teach me in the process!) . Its a joy to be around them, subhana’Allah!

*Distractions, sounds, all of it. This is one of the reasons why I left facebook. I am one of those people who are somewhat hermits, too much noise, too much of stuff just isn’t for me. Spiritually wise its also deadens me a bit in ways I can’t put to words …like there isn’t a lot of room for contemplations, to think, to ponder over the blessings Allah has provided for me, to the wonders all around me, I feel that I miss out on this just a bit when the aforementioned occurs.

*Finishing up a bunch of stuff I started up…
1.) Yaseen Lecture by AbdulNasir Jangda
2.) Alhuda lectures, listen, take notes
3.) Kitabu Tawheed lecture by shaykh Yasir Qadhi
4.) Story of the Ifk by Shaykh Yasir Qadhi
….a lot more stuff to add to list, but needs to look through blog.

* Loving the book search so far…I’ve got a couple in mind so far ” The alchemist” , “A child called it” etc. Just got done with Saturday school and soon to hit Barnes and noble for the Alchemist! Hurry

* Shawaal! Must getr done! Alhamdulilah, Oh Allah grant me the ability to benefit from this month, to continue the race and finish up strong! Allahuma Ameen!

* Dua: I recently read a wonderful post on MM about continuing in the deeds of Ramadan. The dua part is something that I think that I tend to slow down on for some odd reason and for many people too. Its like we rush to it with full force in Ramadan, and then right after its like ‘OK, I’ve done what I could’ and i think for me after Ramadan because of what I like to call ‘my Ramadan lull’ weird, odd, but still there. Dua especially, maybe its human nature but we think…I’ve asked, and now it should come asap, but thats not how dua works, thats now how Allah operates. We as servants are but servants, we do the asking, we wait and remain patient and have the yaqeen (certainity), that Allah azza wa jala will answer our dua according to His decree. So we shall not give up in our dua making, we will continue in this blessed journey.

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Till next, may Allah bless our lives with meaningful activities.

Continuing the race…

Posted: September 7, 2011 in Ahh moments, Quran, Ramadan 2011


So recently I’ve been reviewing from bottom to up (started at juz amma), and always the short makki verses that are so powerful in meaning always put me in a different mood. In Ramadan and even now when I hear some verses I just want to shake my head and think ” wow, how could you”. Mostly, verses like ‘we didn’t use to pray’ or ‘encouraging the feeding of the poor’ (paraphrased), and there is something I always reflect from these verses, that at times we may also fall into these categories (not completely forsaking these duties), but not giving it our all. How many times have we in the past dashed through our salaah in hurry to attend to something, mindlessly, not letting the words sink in and not pondering over the glory of this gift; i.e salaah. How many times have we thought “me, me, me” and didn’t volunteer or give enough of our time to the needy. As a recent graduate I was given a powerful advice from a friend of mine “now rahma, don’t sit at home now…volunteer as much as you can” lol.

Continuing the race…

That is of fasting… Its pretty hard to pick up after Ramadan and do the activities that you kept doing. I know for me there is a bit of a lull but in my house (specifically my mom) the six days of shawaal are completed with much dua, fasting, and continuing of the great activities from Ramadan. Its tough to continue in the motion of things but most definitely the rewards are there for the taking, it is just who need to be selfish in pursuing in these wonderful deeds!

“Whoever fasts Ramadan and follows it with six days from Shawwal it is as if they fasted the entire year.” Reported in Muslim


Alhamdulilah, all praise is due to Allah azza wa jala, who by His will all things are possible.

Alhamdulilah, graduation was on Sunday…yes, I am finally done with Undergrad, and indeed Allah has blessed me with ni3ma. Indeed, there was a time when I first entered University that I wanted to leave it in my quest to solely study Islamic knowledge, and alhamdulilah I am glad that I hadn’t, for indeed much of knowledge of what it means to be a muslimah came by way of attending University. It is through this path that I was able to juggle my life in terms of school, dawah, quran, and more more in giving to my community as a whole, because my time was limited between these Allah allowed me this ardent desire to do more and more.

I’ve learned a great deal in my undergrad.

Children, teaching them, being around them. My Malaysian munchkins can attest that teaching them in those four years helped me grow as a person and the process helped my eman more than anyone can know.

Halaqat on campus and everywhere, indeed this was the highlight of my undergrad. I learned that the purpose of Islam, is to fulfill Allah’s obligation upon you, and then help others to do so. A couple of my great friends that I keep in touch with will sometimes email me, call me, and say how much ‘I changed through life via what I told them in those early years while I myself was sophmore’, and indeed it is only by the will of Allah, that this was possible. Indeed we are only slaves of Allah, and I am grateful that one tiny advice I imparted allowed them to return to Allah subhana wa tala.

I learned about kindness, generosity, and gentleness. Though I don’t always possess these qualities, I am grateful to have experienced it through the people I have met in one shape or form. Academia opens so many doors, not just the job kind, but understanding about the world and human behaviour which I have enjoyed tremendously.

I probably won’t remember all the material I memorized, crammed for exams throughout my college career, but I do remember the friendships, the dawah, and the khayr that we all sought out to do.

One journey of my life has ended, I am grateful for the righteous friends I’ve had throughout my undergrad for indeed these were one of the best times of my life. I am grateful to my mother for all her encouragement, love, and understanding throughout my undergrad. To my siblings, especially Laddy who’s generosity and love knows no end, and last but not least my father, who drove me to places, the best of places (dugsi, where I first developed my love of Quran), and I pray that we are united in the best abodes, Al Firdous Ala.

So whats next now? I just keep thinking about the verse directed at the Prophet sal allahu sallam (and a reminder for us), “Faitha Farqata fansab”…when you are done working, do some more… (paraphrase). A new chapter in my life begins, but I am grateful for the lessons, the memories, and happy that Allah allowed me to learn more and in the process strenghth my iman.

In between Job hunting, Alhuda, and book hunting…I’ve come upon a gem of a book; “Tuesdays with Morrie” I almost bawled my eyes out at Barnes and Noble today, its amazing and moving subhana’Allah.

Two of my favorite quotes!

“So many people walk around with meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they’re busy doing things they think are important. This is because they’re chasing the wrong things. They way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.”

Living with deaths shadows..
“Accept what you are able to do and what you are not able to do”; Accept the past as past, without denying it or discarding it”, “learn to forgive yourself and to forgive others”, Don’t assume that its too late to get involved”