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Alhamdulilah, alhamdulilah! My Lord is so good to us, He gives, He gives, and blesses us in so many ways its unbelievable!

I’ve been swamped- a good type of swamp, wherein I truly believe its Allah subhana wa tala answering my dua list from Ramadan. I’m attached to my dua list in Ramadan and throughout out the year and all of these things that Allah blessed me with is a result of Him choosing to bestow His mercy upon me! Ujeeboo dawati itha daan! Truly Allah did say, “call upon me and I will answer”. So thats the best part of the last couple months, busy, good type of busy, but not enough time to blog. So here are things that have been on my mind!

* If you leave the Quran, the Quran leaves you! Yes, it does. This is something really scary. I’m really big on memorization, beyond tafsir, tajweed, memorization gives me my Quran-eman fix. I don’t know how to describe, but truly combining all three is wonderful works for me! My heart rejoices. So a reminder to all of you out there, don’t let a day go by without reciting, reflecting, and looking in the book of Allah for directions, its a must. Because as time goes by your brain sort begins to rust, almost like cob-webs begins to set in, and in place of a reflective mind, and an eman filled heart, therein begins a deadness that is scary. This reminds me of the saying of the scholars “as the one who doesn’t have quran in their life, is like a ruined house”; how sad that is!

* I was a camp councelor for MYNA again, I love it! Its amazing, and life changing. Camp isn’t really different from what I do with the youth in my community (at least my role), but the activities/lectures I take part in are a bit different. The best way to be better Muslim is to really help others be better Muslims. I have a hadeeth on my wall that I try to live by everyday. “khayro naas man yanfa3o naas” “The best people are those who are of benefit to others” Not to say I’m the perfect Muslim, but helping out the youth, helping them reflect on the deen, and helping them to remember Allah in one way or another really makes my day.

* Teaching in the morning and working at the library really helps me reflect on all sorts of stuff! I’m currently reading “The Help” by Kathyryn Stockett, and I’ve had two things come to mind (Power of the prayer, shunning/mean girls). I was really moved by Aibileen (a black maid in 1962) desire to be close to God and her need/turning to God for everything in the book. Aibileen, though a christian reminded me of my connection with prayer/dua in Islam! This woman writes her own prayers, and this is something I totally relate to. I listened to a lecture once where the shaykh mentioned how we should make our duas personal/specific to Allah, so that we show Allah how weak we are, and of how much we are in need of Him, and our desire to have what we are asking for. I know its odd to think about this, but think about all the duas we’ve been making through out the years, (good health, good deen, etc.), do we ever change it up? Are we better people because of these duas? Have we changed because of them? I say be precise, get to the nity gritty details of what/and how we want something from Allah! This is something I found that worked for me! One of my favourite lines from the book that Aibleen says is ” Cause that’s the way prayer do. It’s like electricity, it keeps things going” Subhana’Allah, how true that is! Second part of this reflection is that of mean girls! Has anyone seen the movie ‘mean girls?” I have never but the gist of it is a bunch of mean girls causing havoc, and subhana’Allah one of the things my camp adviser said was how at times girls can beeeeee soooo viscous/so mean to each other, meaner than boys. Sometimes I see bits and peices of that in my first graders! Subhana’Allah! But anyway, in the story, Skeeter one of the main characters gets shunned by her ‘friends’ when she decides to try to change things up, and stand up for what is right; i.e equality/rights for humanity! Its a sad case though when Hilly, the head ‘mean girl’ shakes things up and turns everyone else against her. Its sad, and the author describes this when Skeeter is told by Aibileen of her being shunned ” I don’t care about any of that ole stuff, anyway. She kind a laugh and it hurts my heart. Cause everybody care. Black, white down we all do.” Its sad stuff, and personally I’ve been at the end of such situations before while I was young as well as an adult (Yeah, if your outspoken at times like me, you are bound to face some difficulty in this area), but subhana’Allah it really takes a strong will, a determination to stay firm in what you fully believe in, and a lot of dua! Its a road of self discovery as well and it really shows you what you are capable of as a person. I try to teach my first grade girls that things like this shouldn’t happen, and that they should be better people and shouldn’t treat each other this way! I really enjoyed this book overall! It reminds me of the Civil rights era, I always enjoyed learning about that era. I feel like its a part of my history as an immigrant to this country. It reminds me back in 6/7th grade when I read “The Watson go to Birmingham…” one of my favourite books, or the “To kill a mockingbird”… man these are really good books to teach in the classroom, I can’t wait to work with my middle Schoolers!

* When my Ipod battery dies in my car and I can’t listen to my Quran, I’m left to NPR lol. I like NPR, but I don’t like listening too much news, because it makes me sad. I listen to it to the point of just being ‘aware’, and cut it off when it passing towards the point of ‘too sad’. So this past week, while driving home from work, there were some recurring news… 4 nights in a row at least. Syrian issues, Pope having a meeting from members of the church from all of over the world for victims of paedophiles in the church… thats a mouth full, and It really made me sad. This is a case of religion/folks practising that religion gone really really wrong! I respect people of faith, but at times its really hard to listen to stuff like that and have an objective mind. Politics/ the run for office/Romney. All sorts of other stuff, Politics is interesting but I’m always sceptical of things that goes down in Politics.

Alhamdulilah, really busy days, but insha’Allah insha’Allah it is all things that Allah is pleased with. I pray that Allah alleviates our difficulties, and may these difficulties be a cause for us to grow closer to our Lord, the Mighty and Majestic!

Till next time, may we meet in the highest abode! Al Firdous Ala!



Alhamdulilah, all praise is due to Allah azza wa jala, who by His will all things are possible.

Alhamdulilah, graduation was on Sunday…yes, I am finally done with Undergrad, and indeed Allah has blessed me with ni3ma. Indeed, there was a time when I first entered University that I wanted to leave it in my quest to solely study Islamic knowledge, and alhamdulilah I am glad that I hadn’t, for indeed much of knowledge of what it means to be a muslimah came by way of attending University. It is through this path that I was able to juggle my life in terms of school, dawah, quran, and more more in giving to my community as a whole, because my time was limited between these Allah allowed me this ardent desire to do more and more.

I’ve learned a great deal in my undergrad.

Children, teaching them, being around them. My Malaysian munchkins can attest that teaching them in those four years helped me grow as a person and the process helped my eman more than anyone can know.

Halaqat on campus and everywhere, indeed this was the highlight of my undergrad. I learned that the purpose of Islam, is to fulfill Allah’s obligation upon you, and then help others to do so. A couple of my great friends that I keep in touch with will sometimes email me, call me, and say how much ‘I changed through life via what I told them in those early years while I myself was sophmore’, and indeed it is only by the will of Allah, that this was possible. Indeed we are only slaves of Allah, and I am grateful that one tiny advice I imparted allowed them to return to Allah subhana wa tala.

I learned about kindness, generosity, and gentleness. Though I don’t always possess these qualities, I am grateful to have experienced it through the people I have met in one shape or form. Academia opens so many doors, not just the job kind, but understanding about the world and human behaviour which I have enjoyed tremendously.

I probably won’t remember all the material I memorized, crammed for exams throughout my college career, but I do remember the friendships, the dawah, and the khayr that we all sought out to do.

One journey of my life has ended, I am grateful for the righteous friends I’ve had throughout my undergrad for indeed these were one of the best times of my life. I am grateful to my mother for all her encouragement, love, and understanding throughout my undergrad. To my siblings, especially Laddy who’s generosity and love knows no end, and last but not least my father, who drove me to places, the best of places (dugsi, where I first developed my love of Quran), and I pray that we are united in the best abodes, Al Firdous Ala.

So whats next now? I just keep thinking about the verse directed at the Prophet sal allahu sallam (and a reminder for us), “Faitha Farqata fansab”…when you are done working, do some more… (paraphrase). A new chapter in my life begins, but I am grateful for the lessons, the memories, and happy that Allah allowed me to learn more and in the process strenghth my iman.

In between Job hunting, Alhuda, and book hunting…I’ve come upon a gem of a book; “Tuesdays with Morrie” I almost bawled my eyes out at Barnes and Noble today, its amazing and moving subhana’Allah.

Two of my favorite quotes!

“So many people walk around with meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they’re busy doing things they think are important. This is because they’re chasing the wrong things. They way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.”

Living with deaths shadows..
“Accept what you are able to do and what you are not able to do”; Accept the past as past, without denying it or discarding it”, “learn to forgive yourself and to forgive others”, Don’t assume that its too late to get involved”


Don’t mind me, and don’t let the title scare you (its not as morbid as it sounds…)
Ever since 2009, since my father passed away I think often about death, not in the “I am so depressed/sad” kinda of way, but in a aah…’ I will return to my Lord kinda of way’. It truly comes with the territory as in the process of making dua for him I cannot think but reflect on my own end. In so many places in the Quran Allah subhana wa tala speaks of life and death being a sign of His ultimate power but also a frame work- a reference for us to remember and reflect on this! That is when one life departs from this world, it is not just a mere “someone died” but rather it is a reminder that we all will return to the Mighty and the Majestic.

So what spurred this talk of death in this blessed night of Ramadan? Today in taraweeh (half way through), one of my most dearest and favorite verses of all time was recited (from Surah Fussilat), alhamdulilah though we are not at surah Fussilat (for surely that would cause for reason of super sadness as thats super close to end of taraweeh, end of Ramadan). I wrote about this verse when I first memorized Surah Fussilat…and how my heart rejoices every time I hear it (see reflection below). There have been so many times throughout taraweeh these days that my heart rejoiced, and my mind and limbs were moved by the verse…but I have not had the chance to sit down and document this as I’ve been extremely busy. Alhamdulilah though, this verse is dear to my heart and truly amidst looking at cadavars every week for my anatomy class, I am in awe of the power of Allah subhana wa tala to create, and mold all of us in such a fashion. I am also aghast at how at times we may be ungrateful to Allahu subhana wa tala i.e not worshipping Him as He is most deserving, or even so falling short in our worship of Him….for at the end of the day when I look at these cadavars I just think …’ we are just flesh and bones, and just these parts put together…we are weak and turn frail once the soul departs this shell of a body of ours…and all of these minute things are but for usage in worshipping Him, the most High…’ subhana’Allah, subhana’Allah. Indeed my Lord is great, and may we always recognize this and never forget the purpose of our lives, the end goal..our greatest purpose we were created for.

The end goal…which brings me back to why the verse below is one of my favorite parts…..I get happy to hear of the angels descending and consoling the believer, and then something else happens along the way…I make myself imagine myself to be of those, or at least I want to be one of those (I like to think and ponder on my end), and indeed that reflection or that thought frame allows me to work hard and excel in seeking this glorious end. May Allah grant all of us to be of those whom He loves and may we have a blessed end- a qatimul Khayr!

=================Heavenly agents at time of death================

Surah Fussilat

This Surah is like any surah in the Qur’an for it is full of meanings that subhanallah if one were to just read and implement it they would be successful. To touch base on somethings that grabbed my attention are the following verses…(30-31)

30. In the case of those who say, “Our Lord is Allah., and, further, stand straight and steadfast, the angels descend on them (from time to time): “Fear ye not!” (they suggest), “Nor grieve! but receive the Glad Tidings of the Garden (of Bliss), the which ye were promised!

31. “We are your protectors in this life and in the Hereafter: therein shall ye have all that your souls shall desire; therein shall ye have all that ye ask for!-

To me these verses are amazing for the they speak concerning the death of the believer. To many people the concept of death is hard to swallow for it is scary knowing no one will aid anyone when the angle of death comes to get the person…however in these verses it explains how the angles will console the believer…they will tell them not to grieve. Its shocking to know that at the most loneliest time in a person history a heavenly being will be there to assure them of their destination just because they were beleivers. Subhanallah overall it just makes me strive to be the best believer.


Mom’s hajj trip

Posted: December 1, 2010 in Ahh moments, Hajj, Parents


Alhamdulilah, all praise is due to Allah who bestows His favors upon all.

Alhamduilah, my mom came back from her trip last night and I had the chance to spend the day with her today and hear of her wonderful and beautiful experience! From her story I truly understood what it meant for Allah to call to decide who gets this opportunity to come..the time, and the way. Hajj is truly an amazing and wonderful journey that we are all commanded to embark on when able to. A lot of times with studies, work, family and a lot of other responsibilities many are not able to attend, but for someone who are still buckled down by the same things there will come a time when they cannot forsake the calling that Allah does to His home for them. Sometimes this may come in the form of a dream as it so happened with my mom…weeks before hajj season she kept hearing ‘labayaka allahuma labayak’ in her dream and people saying to her “come, we are leaving” in a short time span she hurried and made preparations and subhana’Allah with all the deadlines of visa and shots and getting her passport together Allah facilitated it for her, Allah blessed her with such a wonderful gift, subhana’Allah. One of the most beautiful aspects of her journey is that she had not planned on it this year but with the dream she felt as though she had to go, that this was truly a sign Allah wanted her to go this year! I am so hapy and glad that Allah blessed her with this change and I ask Allah to accept it of her and to make her from the people in the highest abode of Paradise. I was so happy to hear of her chance to sit and make dua for all of us, and how she particularly asked for things for each one of us, and for the ummah. Alhamdulilah.

Lesson learned; whether in a dream or a desire to go to hajj- answer that call! i.e answer the call from Allah azza wa jala! The beginning of this verse truly reminds me of that call! “Wa athanu min Allah wa rasoolihee”

9:3 And an announcement from Allah and His Messenger, to the people (assembled) on the day of the Great Pilgrimage,- that Allah and His Messenger dissolve (treaty) obligations with the Pagans. If then, ye repent, it were best for you; but if ye turn away, know ye that ye cannot frustrate Allah. And proclaim a grievous penalty to those who reject Faith.

From hearing her talks I am adamant to go next year, at 23 years of age now I am really excited at the prospect of going and being giving the chance of a life time!

Till next time, may Allah join us all in the best of places; paradise.


Posted: April 29, 2009 in Ahh moments, Parents


Alhamdulilah, all praise is due to Allah who has blessed all of us with nurturing parents. I was listening to a lecture yesterday and in it the shaykh spoke of how one of the best things is to love, but what is greater is to have the love of someone. To know that someone truly loves is a remarkable things, and indeed no one can love you or care for you as your family would ever. Subhana’Allah, we’ve come to the first Juz in Baqarah (test time ahhhh), but also a benchmark for me…subhana’Allah, as I told one friend of mine when asked of my days and my daily schedule, I told her some days I don’t want to get out of bed. 🙂 Alhamdulilah, and thats just the beauty of life. Alhamdulilah! Keeping up with Al-huda classes has been tough but so rewarding, it is times like these..ahhh moments, understanding ayahs, and truly feeling it in the heart and let it sink in..thats when I think this is good, this is really really good, this is the stuff of life! So, todays ayahs was remarkable and in it was an awesome reminder for all of us.

Without further ado…here it is:

Waith akhathna meethaqa banee israeela la taAAbudoona illa Allaha wabialwalidayni ihsanan wathee alqurba waalyatama waalmasakeeni waqooloo lilnnasi husnan waaqeemoo alssalata waatoo alzzakata thumma tawallaytum illa qaleelan minkum waantum muAAridoona

2:83 And remember We took a covenant from the Children of Israel (to this effect): Worship none but Allah. treat with kindness your parents and kindred, and orphans and those in need; speak fair to the people; be steadfast in prayer; and practise regular charity. Then did ye turn back, except a few among you, and ye backslide (even now).

Wa Bi Wallidayni: and with the two parents, duel of the word waalid: waalid-one who gives birth, waaw laam daal. Waladah-to give birth, to have children. The two whose child a person is-mother and father.

Ihsaanaa: utmost good: root: haa seen noon: husn-beauty. Ihsaan means to do something beautifully. Ihsaan is towards Allah and towards people as well. Worshiping Allah in a beautiful manner, and for the people is to do more than expected, do more than they deserve. Ihsaan is not something you give back-meaning you don’t expect something back for doing it. Also, it is when the other person treats you in a bad way, you still remain good to them-your dealing is with Allah and reward lies with Him. We know we have to be good to our parents, doing good to our parents doesn’t mean paying them back for their love and affection-it means being good to them and obey them all the time. It means doing good in different ways and thinking that you’ve never done enough, because the moment you start thinking you pay them back , you think you’ve done enough. (story of the man who took his mother for hajj, put her on his back, and though he had done enough). Always do different things and in different ways for your parents. This means being good to them, being dutiful to them, being obedient to them, and even praying forgiveness for them, also includes being good to those whom they love. Keeping company with them and with those they love and keeping relations with those whom they love.

Till next time, may we all be joined in Al-Firdous!



“Oh Allah grant her Jannatul Firdous”. These are the words I spoke as I reflected upon my attempt at squeezing the life out of my mother i.e hug. Alhamdulilah, for having the ability to do this. In today’s bayyinah class we spoke heavily about parents. Subhana’Allah, first and foremost I ask Allah to forgive me if I ever encouraged anyone by way of my words or actions in disobeying their parents. As I memorize daily for the book of Allah (memorization rockin this break) and reflect on the many ayahs I think about what it means to do ihsan-have ihsan for one parents. Allah subhana wa tala refers to bir waladanee-obedience to parents six times in the Quran. Six times. Six times. This is for bani adam who tends to forget. Six whole times Allah refers to obedience, being good, doing ihsan to one parents six times, and never does Allah speak about this in the same manner as wives or children. Why? As mentioned before, birr waladanee is one of these acts in which Allah subhan wa tala has tied to His worship, this is hardcore-super hard. Subhana’Allah, when we think about how much a mother specifically goes through in carrying a child i.e the sickness, heartburn, the kicking-and the pain of child birth. And then all followed by the rearing of later years-the difficulty or the anxiety that comes of whether one is properly raising them in accordance to Allahs deen. And of the thought or pain that is felt when a child passes away even before it reaches the world, and of this the Prophet s.a.w. speaks of this unborn child in Jannah of how even though he/she is given a place in Jannah, it waits for their mother whom they’ve never seen, but they stay in place and wait all because of what?! Because it-he/she heard its mothers heart beat-vibration in the wound. Subhana’Allah! How can you make your relationship with your parents a better one, and thus gain the love of Ar-Rahman?!

*Disclaimer, mind me I am in no way an expert and I ask Allah to increase me in knowledge so as to better serve my parents.

1.) Language of Love/ i.e communication: When I was a freshmen in college-still green, I remember taking this class on marriage and families-one of those awesome human development courses, and one of the topics we talked about was how you should learn the ways-language of communication that your partner has. In a lot of ways, looking back at this concept, this really rings true for parents. A lot of parents, especially from different countries show respect/love/and basically communicate emotion in totally different ways. All in all-express your feelings, physically, emotionally.

2.) Differentiate between ill feelings and just bad days. Again this goes back to knowing ones parents temperament and gauging when its to keep away and when to approach.

3.) Dua! In every salaah, make dua and hope that Allah enters both your parents into Jannah and for Allah to place and grow love between you. Along side with the dua which is the best gift of all-give material gifts as well, and bithniAllah this will go a long way in creating love and showing ones caring side.

4.) Respect their wishes. Ask yourself if Jannah is one side, and you wanting to stick strongly to an opinion about a certain topic is more important. I speak to myself before anything else-if anything you want to pursue in the dunya goes against the disobedience of your parents-and is not specifically related to Aqeedah issue-then know its not worth the fight. Harvest and sow your roots for Jannah today.

5.) Spend time with them. There is nothing more beloved to a parent then a child hanging with their parents-regardless if one is 30. Even if they don’t say it, parents trust me dig it. If a friend asks you to go shopping or something along the lines and you know your mom is home alone, don’t be afraid to blow them off (politely) in saying that “dudette no, I am gonna go home and chill with my mom…because that is cool”.

Alhamdulilah, Bayyinah course was awesome tonight and I ask Allah to make me always of those who are in such a circle of khayr. Covered Rhythm-a.) bounce b.) ghunna c.) and lots of recitations. With tonight’s post, I leave with three powerful ayahs in which I’ve had the pleasure to memorize and some which I hope to memorize soon enough.

Wawassayna alinsana biwalidayhi husnan wain jahadaka litushrika bee ma laysa laka bihi AAilmun fala tutiAAhuma ilayya marjiAAukum faonabbiokum bima kuntum taAAmaloona

29:8 We have enjoined on man kindness to parents: but if they (either of them) strive (to force) thee to join with Me (in worship) anything of which thou hast no knowledge, obey them not. Ye have (all) to return to me, and I will tell you (the truth) of all that ye did.(Al-Ankabut)

Wawassayna alinsana biwalidayhi hamalathu ommuhu wahnan AAala wahnin wafisaluhu fee AAamayni ani oshkur lee waliwalidayka ilayya almaseeru

31:14 And We have enjoined on man (to be good) to his parents: in travail upon travail did his mother bear him, and in years twain was his weaning: (hear the command), “Show gratitude to Me and to thy parents: to Me is (thy final) Goal.(Luqman)

Wawassayna alinsana biwalidayhi ihsanan hamalathu ommuhu kurhan wawadaAAathu kurhan wahamluhu wafisaluhu thalathoona shahran hatta itha balagha ashuddahu wabalagha arbaAAeena sanatan qala rabbi awziAAnee an ashkura niAAmataka allatee anAAamta AAalayya waAAala walidayya waan aAAmala salihan tardahu waaslih lee fee thurriyyatee innee tubtu ilayka wainnee mina almuslimeena

46:15 We have enjoined on man kindness to his parents: In pain did his mother bear him, and in pain did she give him birth. The carrying of the (child) to his weaning is (a period of) thirty months. At length, when he reaches the age of full strength and attains forty years, he says, “O my Lord! Grant me that I may be grateful for Thy favour which Thou has bestowed upon me, and upon both my parents, and that I may work righteousness such as Thou mayest approve; and be gracious to me in my issue. Truly have I turned to Thee and truly do I bow (to Thee) in Islam.”   (Al-Ahqaf)

Till next time, see you all in bithniAllah on the other side; where the grass is green and rivers of honey and milk flow.